I would never hurt myself nor others, but I gotta admit I've thought about suicide before. When times were really hard than they are now, but I never had the guts to do it. I'm grateful I didn't. The title "losing myself"
is all about how I just keep on pretending I'm okay and happy when I'm not and I don't know who I am now. Behind the curtains I'm just trying to get by and I don't have all the answers or everything together.
I try to keep myself occupied and that's why I cleaned last week and it resulted in a aching pain in my right hand till this day. I just don't want to sit and think about it anymore. If I do I'll just fall into pieces and that's why I just take a deep breathe and look up to the sky and know that someday this will get better. The details aren't that important on what's going on, but it's the usual. I made a playlist that I've been listening too; it's new.
- Rooney- When Did Your Heart Go Missing
- Taylor Swift- Safe and Sound
- Seven Nation Army
- She Wolf
- Sistar- Alone
- Smash Mouth- Everyday Super Hero
- Sunshine and City Lights
- Taylor Swift- Lucky One
- Flo Rida- I cry
- 2ne1 - Go Away
- Boa- Every heart
- Chris Brown -Don't Judge Me
- Christina Aguilera- Just a Fool
- Whataya Want From Me
- Sistar- Loving You
- Brown Eyed Girls- One Summer Night
- Kelly Clarkson- Behind These Hazel Eyes
- Lana Del Ray- Ride
- Kim Wilde- Kids In America
- Simple Plan- I'm Just a Kid
- Rascal Flatts- Life is a Highway
- Linkin Park - Waiting For The End
- My Chemical Romance- Welcome To The Black Parade
- Paramore - Decode
- Paramore- Monster
This is just half of my playlist I got like dozens, but music really heals the heart. From experience even when you're crying and nothing can cheer you up just listen to the songs that apply to your situation. Feeling the blues today........
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