Thursday, November 13, 2014

Why do you have to make me go insane all the fucking time?

I hope you know that while you're out partying; she's at home hurting because of you

Maybe instead of asking permission. Why don't you actually try to think about it and make the decision yourself.

Space is the answer

She sits there lifeless. Crying on the inside till finally a tear sheds. She thinks about what you have done. She thinks about everything. She knows what she feels anger, sadness, disappointment, hurt...but because she loved you so much she hid it from you. She wanted to give you everything you deserved. Everything you wanted. But inside she was dying when you would light up for another girl or play games with your buddies and come home late or drink away with your professor in her house. Is she wrong to feel so? She doesn't want to hurt you, but in return she's only hurting herself and you in the end with the everlasting fights and misunderstandings. Could this be the end? She wonders as she hears herself say "I'm done" in her head.  She tried to be something she's not, but the truth came out slowly and painfully. It killed her. You killed her. Because, when you ask her these things and she replies "Okay. You do whatever you want." It is not okay and you don't do whatever you want. Because it hurts her. 

Monday, November 10, 2014

After I finally rejected the hosting jobs. Less stress this semester as much as possible, please?

Cause' its November *.* I'm craving some serious pumpkin dishes! I'm talking about pumpkin cookies w/ cream cheese and pumpkin pie! ♥♥♥

LOL: Me. When I say I'm just gonna get some snack.

My Lovely Afternoon with this Cutie! Jam packed with cute boutiques, lots of walking, and well sweet treats Sorry for the late upload. ^^" I couldn't decide which filter you would like.

Smile at the world and the world will smile back. Spread the positive.

LOL: me. When I have a new bias or celebrity crush

My feet look super classy with these Jasmine and Aladdin like shoes on. Hehe

Christmas is on the way!! Even if there's still lots to do like the outside lights display, the big parol, window display, and the tiny Christmas tree upstairs but, I'm super psyched helping make my grandma's "White Christmas" come true. ‪#‎workingprogress‬

HELLOOOO PRIVACY!!!!! So, guys if you wanna friend me on FB and see my other posts then just look up my private account, "Ashley Go Lucky" :)


I guess I'm always gonna be that busy bee who takes on way too much for my own good. What can I say? That I love being in charge? I love having people listen to my ideas and actually creating something totally different than the usual norm? It's great and all, but sometimes it comes to a point that breaking down is my calling card. It's what heals me inside when I feel like my mind is full of heated lava ready to burst at any moment! That I end up crawling back up like a baby in despair. I know I gotta lessen the reigns a bit and actually have people take over and let them do their job. It's hard juggling everything putting myself on the line all the time. It's exhausting and quite frankly lonely. I don't wanna be a human assistant for the rest of my life. Because, at the end of the day that's why people think I'm always available even invincible to the fact that I could do anything they tell me to do. I've been a "Yes-Girl" for far too long now, its time I start saying "No."

I have no idea why I like this song. hahahha XD "And if in the moment you bite your lip When I get you moaning you know it's real Can you feel the pressure between your hips? I'll make it feel like the first time 'Cause if you want to keep me, you gotta gotta gotta gotta got to love me harder (Imma love you harder)"

Such Emotion: I've been there once in my life. What about you guys?

IT'S NOT EVEN MY BIRTHDAY!!!! ;A; Thank you, Rave, Best, and Big Bro!!! I don't know what I did to make you guys buy presents for me at the K-pop Convention *coughs*coughs* maybe because i'm such an awesome friend. ^.^ keke~ BUT!! Nevertheless, for a K-pop fangirl of Infinite. You guys made one of my dreams come true. Hugs and Kisses !!! you guys!!

MY FAVORITE SONG THESE DAYS!!! I'm so happy that they chose make an mv for this song. hehe The dresses and scenes and guys and everything really was just right on and spectacular!!

You've seen me in my most normal, wacky, funny, needy, inlove, adorable, flirty, incomplete, and mad state, because YOU bring the best out of me. :)