Inspiring, yes? Well maybe or not. But I'm really pissed about what everyone is saying about Kelly Osbourne; I mean the girl, practically looks amazing in all purple on of my fav colors and they're criticizing her for wearing what she wants, which is black diamond nail polish. Who cares! if you gots the cash and the bold style and confidence to wear that thing. Do it! without any hesitation and regrets. Be different; I mean if I had the money to buy and wear those kinds of things I would and guilty is charge everyone has thought about showing off to the world so don't play innocent or oh she's a show off. Just shove it up you're asses and fuck off. Not your life and it's her right. :*
Next, I'm so weird for dreaming about wait for it.... Paris freakin Hilton! Yeah I said it. No, it was not porn but she was having this anime club meeting about sket dance, I know it already sucks and then her dad was throwing next door with celebrities next door to my house, where the meeting was held too. So, then blah blah blah..... her dad came next door to our meeting and wanted Paris to excite the party I guess and she went but she didn't want too. So, she started playing Sket Dance songs on the speakers loudly and everyone fled to my house. It was a mess! and well, in the end Paris hates to party. What a weird dream..
Anyway, I saw my friend today we talked but it was short and then it got boring afterwards. She said it not me and I'm the guests so i didn't want to say it but i literally felt like running up a cliff and screaming it out. I mean I finished a whole magazine! I don't know what it was exactly but we weren't like our usual selves. But my conscience can relax a bit because I got my book back all I'm waiting is for the costume now. Moving on, we talked about college and stuff and how miserable I am at times. But, as always I need to say I can't.... I can't...I can't!!! all the time and it comes to this -------------MONEY!!
I've made plans to go to Manila, for my senior's debut which is my other friend and well, judging by this picture you get the memo.
As, usual the whole you can't go because we don't have enough money or we don't have the car or no you can;t go because where are you can stay......A bunch of nothing garbage. When my mom starts to give me the "Talk" and no not the other talk but the one about you can't go because of all the questions above I tend to forget I ever asked and move on with my life as if it never existed into this world and this conversation we never had it. Or just like to today I closed the chat box on her and I tried to ignore her but I just can't because I'm not the type of person to do so. I forgive them but it doesn't mean I fully forgotten I still wanna go. Life sucks when the universe is turning and turning and it never stops that you feel like barfing and it just never ends that's how it feels like.
So, next time I should just reject every outing that my friends ask me to go to. I mean obviously I'm totally happy spending my life 24 hours a day to pure t.v., computer, and cleaning and teaching my siblings. Yeah! life is soo great you can;t see the smile on my face because I'm frowning too hard you can barely even move it. I even sigh more than I used to. I just wish my parents for once in their life or for once in my life say that they'll try or "let's see what I can do" and not always give me the talk out straight because I call dibbs on the first cab to run me over and kill me now. WAITING SUCKS PERIOD.
FOREVER ALONE MUCH..............
P.S. sorry the constant mood swings it's a phase this month only a girl would understand that.
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