MERRY CHRISTMAS, PANDA'S~!!!! ^.^

When I feel lost. I always try to self-reflect and find myself all over again. Where did my confidence in myself go?

Only in my dreams ;A; can't somebody. Anybody. Do this for me?

My Breakfast: Sweet treat for the sick!! Thank you, Daddy!! <3

MOVIES, MOVIES, AND OH! MORE MOVIES!! MY MUST WATCH LIST ♥

PANDA CONFESSIONS: I don't like K-Pop as much and I don't really read nor watch Anime anymore. :( Too busy and Too Lazy

COC: My Latest Interest

SUPERWOMAN, MY HERO

Okay, guys! She is literally the most funny and amazing girl I have ever seen on YouTube that is just because I don't have a favorite YouTuber, but now I do! :D  Like! gosh!!! I am obsessed with her vid's! You guys should check some of them out too. I swear it'll make you laugh your ass off. :D

Staying warm and cozy ^.^

Does taking "selfies" boost your self-esteem?

I admit that I went through a major selfie phase back in the day before they were even called "selfies" to begin with. However, nowadays I'm just like "ugh! I'm so ugly" I literally refuse to take any pictures of myself, because I either dislike how I look in the picture or I just think that its a bit too overrated. At often times I get so worked up on trying look all cute that I completely dived into wanting people to like my picture or think I look pretty, because it boosted my self esteem.  But, come on..now there's people taking it to the extreme doing ridiculous things just to take a pretty good selfie. I am so tired of the trend that I literally considered unfriend-ing all of my friends on FB that took way too many selfies by the minute. If you were to ask if it boosted my self-confidence, I would say no. If anything it made me even more insecure about myself and the need to strive for outer beauty. 

MY FEATURE ARTICLE IN THE SCHOOL NEWSPAPER!! ^O^

Why do you have to make me go insane all the fucking time?

I hope you know that while you're out partying; she's at home hurting because of you

Maybe instead of asking permission. Why don't you actually try to think about it and make the decision yourself.

Space is the answer

She sits there lifeless. Crying on the inside till finally a tear sheds. She thinks about what you have done. She thinks about everything. She knows what she feels anger, sadness, disappointment, hurt...but because she loved you so much she hid it from you. She wanted to give you everything you deserved. Everything you wanted. But inside she was dying when you would light up for another girl or play games with your buddies and come home late or drink away with your professor in her house. Is she wrong to feel so? She doesn't want to hurt you, but in return she's only hurting herself and you in the end with the everlasting fights and misunderstandings. Could this be the end? She wonders as she hears herself say "I'm done" in her head.  She tried to be something she's not, but the truth came out slowly and painfully. It killed her. You killed her. Because, when you ask her these things and she replies "Okay. You do whatever you want." It is not okay and you don't do whatever you want. Because it hurts her. 

HAPPY VETERAN'S DAY, PAPA!!!

♥♥MUST WATCH 2015 ♥♥

URGH!!! Too many feels, pimples again, and easily getting tired/ sleepy all the freaking time.

After I finally rejected the hosting jobs. Less stress this semester as much as possible, please?

Cause' its November *.* I'm craving some serious pumpkin dishes! I'm talking about pumpkin cookies w/ cream cheese and pumpkin pie! ♥♥♥

LOL: Me. When I say I'm just gonna get some snack.

My Lovely Afternoon with this Cutie! Jam packed with cute boutiques, lots of walking, and well sweet treats Sorry for the late upload. ^^" I couldn't decide which filter you would like.

Smile at the world and the world will smile back. Spread the positive.

LOL: me. When I have a new bias or celebrity crush

My feet look super classy with these Jasmine and Aladdin like shoes on. Hehe

Christmas is on the way!! Even if there's still lots to do like the outside lights display, the big parol, window display, and the tiny Christmas tree upstairs but, I'm super psyched helping make my grandma's "White Christmas" come true. ‪#‎workingprogress‬

HELLOOOO PRIVACY!!!!! So, guys if you wanna friend me on FB and see my other posts then just look up my private account, "Ashley Go Lucky" :)

Stressed.

I guess I'm always gonna be that busy bee who takes on way too much for my own good. What can I say? That I love being in charge? I love having people listen to my ideas and actually creating something totally different than the usual norm? It's great and all, but sometimes it comes to a point that breaking down is my calling card. It's what heals me inside when I feel like my mind is full of heated lava ready to burst at any moment! That I end up crawling back up like a baby in despair. I know I gotta lessen the reigns a bit and actually have people take over and let them do their job. It's hard juggling everything putting myself on the line all the time. It's exhausting and quite frankly lonely. I don't wanna be a human assistant for the rest of my life. Because, at the end of the day that's why people think I'm always available even invincible to the fact that I could do anything they tell me to do. I've been a "Yes-Girl" for far too long now, its time I start saying "No."

I have no idea why I like this song. hahahha XD "And if in the moment you bite your lip When I get you moaning you know it's real Can you feel the pressure between your hips? I'll make it feel like the first time 'Cause if you want to keep me, you gotta gotta gotta gotta got to love me harder (Imma love you harder)"

Such Emotion: I've been there once in my life. What about you guys?

IT'S NOT EVEN MY BIRTHDAY!!!! ;A; Thank you, Rave, Best, and Big Bro!!! I don't know what I did to make you guys buy presents for me at the K-pop Convention *coughs*coughs* maybe because i'm such an awesome friend. ^.^ keke~ BUT!! Nevertheless, for a K-pop fangirl of Infinite. You guys made one of my dreams come true. Hugs and Kisses !!! you guys!!

MY FAVORITE SONG THESE DAYS!!! I'm so happy that they chose make an mv for this song. hehe The dresses and scenes and guys and everything really was just right on and spectacular!!

You've seen me in my most normal, wacky, funny, needy, inlove, adorable, flirty, incomplete, and mad state, because YOU bring the best out of me. :)

Dad: Hey! I want you to go to bed at 8, okay? Me: 8!?!?! What am I? 60? Dad: Ashley, don't f*** with me. You're forgetting I'm your… Me: Father. Hehe *Darth Vader voice* I'm your father!!!! Haha XD Dad: I'm serious. Me: Okay. Fine. XD

Honestly.

Do not text or call me if it doesn't concern me. Just because you're too lazy to get my sister's number doesn't mean you can use me to pass a message. Because, last time I checked I wasn't Hermes.

The Friendliest Girl on earth is the Loneliest of all

She was never really good at being alone. Never have, Never will. Yet she wasn't always so friendly...all throughout elementary to highschool she had friends, but they never seem to last. She would befriend them and they would just either leave her for somebody else or use her for money. She did everything to keep them, even pretending she was somebody else just to fit in. She then stopped trying and when all hope was lost she was blessed with two best friends, but she knew in her heart that all good things wouldn't last. She was right. College life came and her best friends had to go their separate paths yet they still continue to keep in touch with her. She knew she had to make new friends in order to survive. She changed herself to actually make it right this time. Meaning to show her true self to the world in the hopes that she would find new friends that would accept her, that she later accomplished to the point that everyone in school knew who she was and wanted to befriend her and  strangers would greet her hello every day and everywhere. She was popular.  She was finally happy, but she just had too many friends and most of them were fake that it exhausted her; she knew she had to make a choice, but she couldn't decide which group to join whether the Bitchy All-Girl Group, the Bad Influence Group, or yet the Strangely Weird Group. She went on and made a decision to join the Strangely Weird Group, the purest group of friends, ones she could be herself with and relate too. However, little did she know that the next year she would lose them all. She made new friends this year, but it came with a price, they all had their own group of friends. Sometimes its great, Sometimes its lonely. But she was happy at whatever she can get till today.  So, here she was walking around school looking at her friends with their friends. Realizing she never had a group of friends of her own to begin with, maybe her best friends in high school is the only friends she'll ever have. So, here she is back at square one, friendless, feeling self pity for herself, and crying deeply inside. She fixed her face and put on a show as she sat all alone wondering  when will she ever leave this place. For she couldn't fit in here maybe she could some place else. It was no big surprise that she thought like that after all running away is her speciality. When she got home her thoughts had silenced her. Till she snapped out of it! And, I said to myself "If I am to be alone then, maybe its time I be my own friend. My best friend in fact!"

The End.

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY AMERICA!!! :))

FUCKING PERFECT: People, have got to stop coming to me and asking me about my sister, Cathy. I mean honestly..why don't you just go straight to her and ask how she is and if she's going to school tomorrow. I'm tired of being a messenger. Don't talk to me if you're not going to ask how I am or anything about me. =w=

MEANIES: Whipping out Taylor Swift's song "Mean" because, this song has never failed me when I felt picked on and wronged >< Yah! Because, speaking in a whole different language is weird!?!?! Like what? You people applaud to speaking in Korean but, English is too difficult to understand. Gurl, don't even know me. hmfph! Then, imagine you gonna be a teacher someday. Please, fix your problem before your future students become bullies!

LOOK UP OR DOWN?

EPIC ♥

♥LOVE THIS ♥

"A guy who loves you will always encourage you to achieve your ambitions and potential. He won't hold you back because he's jealous or afraid that you'll leave him behind. Instead he'll be proud of you, and will do everything he can to support you. He'll never tell you that your ideas are silly or unrealistic - a guy who loves you will never put you down."

UPDATE: I am currently downloading music for my lil brother and damn! This thing is hurting my head >< What kind of music is that!?! Seriously, though I would have never known he was into electro music :D

Needless to say that drama in books and movies are great to read about and watch but, in real life? Not so much. ♥

A LIFE LESSON ♥ My sister is a bit heartbroken right now :'( (All credits to the anonymous writer!!)

Where does the spark and infatuation from the beginning go?. Its crazy how quickly you can go from being excited to talk to a person to feeling like you're forcing the conversation. The quality time turns into "i was working" and the consistent communication turns into "i dont know". When does "I hate to see you leave" turn into "It hurts too much to stay?". Maybe were all guilty of taking things for granted, or letting our fears stop us from taking certain chances. Maybe we think we can make love appear when it's convenient, or maybe we dont realize the effort required to keep the good thing good. Maybe we think happiness is something that just finds us, instead of being something we work for and choose to have. And maybe thats why we all get it wrong so often.

Its amazing how fast things change...

You go from laughing about anything to arguing about everything...You have to go thru the motions, wondering if they're real, if they really care, or if they're going to run when it's rough. You want to give more of yourself to somebody but its hard these days because you just never know if you'll get anything back. You think you have it all down. You do the little things, you stay consistent, but somehow it just doesn't add up. Maybe the problem is that we expect the love to be magical before we become magicians. Or could it be that we're all just better breakers than builders. We'd rather have feelings we can throw away and 'love' thats disposable. Lord forbid a situation require us to grow, learn more, and actually put work in. Reality is rough. You only want what's easy and thats why what you get never lasts. Everybody wants to be fought for but nobody is willing to fight. He love the butterflies but he avoid beginnings because he hates having to start over. She's tired but she's so used to the chase that she's scared to stop running. Makes you wonder?....
Is Love really hard or people are just difficult.

LOL: My highest score in that Happy Bird (rip off version of Flappy bird) is 3!!! >< Haha! Even my baby bro got the highest score of 26!!! I need practice! yosh!

MUSIC| UPDATE: Lovin AKMU's new songs 200% and Melted ^_^

UPDATE: This is how I feel about one of the most amazing guys I've ever come to love and know. He was there with me through out my 1st yr. in college and he's also my Soulmate (nickname we call each other). I am so very lucky to have him in my liife and world! I miss him everyday even if we don't see each other often. Guys! I finally got him! hehe #31014

                  "Like Yesterday"

I remember like yesterday I
Carried a heart without hope
Had given up on mystery I
Only saw mirrors and smoke
Thought I was fine alone
That’s just because I didn’t know

I remember like yesterday
Lovin you seemed far away
We were friends in different places
Then love began leavin traces
Sitting with u on a crowded bus
It seemed like just the 2 of us
That night everything was changed

I remember like yesterday
I was livin’ in black and white a
Careful and colorless life
You are like a neon light
Shined through my closed my eyes
All the right ones, they turned out wrong
But you were here all along

I remember like yesterday
Lovin you seemed far away
We were friends in different places
Then love began leavin traces
Little folded up love letters
Sweet songs written for each other
Everything was about to changed

I remember like yesterday
You came just in time for me
You changed my mind so easily
Now its you and me
I remember like yesterday
Lovin’ you seemed far away
We were friends in different places
Then love began leavin’ traces
With a first time I love you
On a Paris afternoon
And now everything has changed

I remember like yesterday
I remember like yesterday
Lovin’ you seemed far away
Thought I could live without you
So glad I finally found you
On the street in the pouring rain
Our hearts both found their ways
I love how everything changed

I remember ’cause its today
On a stairway in the park
In the starlight after dark
Sweet kisses in the pouring rain

UPDATE: It's my 18 birthday tomorrow!!!! ^_______^ Tehee! Food and karaoke here I come!

UPDATE: @CITYPANDA RELEASE - All photos were taken by my sister, Cathy and I organized, edited, and put them together. :)))

OKIE DOKIE! Lately, my sched has been a little tight and I haven't been able to update you guys on what's new in fashion, k-pop, nor my life!! But, that's okay! Because, that just means more stories and posts for you guys. :) I'll try my best but, it won't be much. So, sorry >.< !!!



WELCOME TO MY FEBRUARY

ALL THESE ARE ACCORDING FROM NEW TO OLD :) ENJOY!!

  tehee~

It was late at night after rehearsals for my hosting job when, I noticed that my face was on the school's giant tarpulin for Foundation Day.

ME: "Whuuutttt!!!! Whaaa!!!! HUH!! Is that ME?!!?!?!?!"  !!!!
Kuya Guard: "Ay, hindi hindi." (in a sarcastic way) 
ME: Kuya, you're ruining my moment -.-
Kuya Guard: "Ay! Cge cge, po.. continue your moment"
ME: *continues moment* 

The next day, I realized that it says "be the best news writer" or something and it's funny because, what I was writing wasn't an article but, an equation in math. HAHa 

I SURVIVED!!!!!!! 

(MY FIRST EVER HOSTING JOB)

Imagine, having only been told the day before the program that you were gonna be the host and you had to go to two practices at the same time!!! My voice was a bit parched from yelling and talking non-stop but, I left all of that backstage when I was going crazy XD I did make a lot of mistakes and it wasn't perfect but, I have got to say, Not bad for a first-timer, ey?  Hopefully, the audience understood what I said; I mean I try to speak in Tagalog but, I felt more comfortable speaking in English besides half of whatever I said (which I don't remember) was improv! XD It was an interesting job and I realized it ain't so easy afterall, it is so damn hard! Anyway, Thank you "old people" (who gave me the job), Friends, and my Family!!!!! Daddy!!! HAHA Yelling out "That's my kids!!!" and "Ah! What the hell, my kids look better than the contestants" infront of everybody!!! And, Mommy!!! Who we wish was there to see it!  HAHA Yup #parentpride #proud SO, THANK YOU AGAIN!!!!! :)))))) IT WAS A BLAST!!!

My Valentine's Day!   

It wasn't anything big or special but, I did get to talk to my mom over the phone that very morning!  It made my day! After that I spent a few hours with my little dates XD My kids at the Daycare :))) When they saw me they like literally hugged me! So, sweet!! In the middle of the day, I had a "True Love Waits Seminar", GOSH! I got to see some old faces from when I was in grade school and got a little emotional when they talked about "God" and "that letter"  hihi Me and my emotions.  !! Then, the whole afternoon I spent hours losing my voice because I was supporting that guy! #Princeofhearts2014 It was worth it.  Shot out! To my good friend, Bubbles, who gave me a present for V-day.  LOL I still haven't ate it yet. XD I was too tired. But, thank you lots!!!!  #Thatballoon

 

Just one of the gifts I gave to my friends at school for V-Day ^_^

BATANG UNION!!!

LOL Pastor Mich, actually used me for some photography experiment at school XD Everyone, was just like "Ashley, can I get your autograph?" So, embarrassing!!! But, the moment was ruined when one of my friends yelled out "ME TOO!!!" And, took over the shoot haha Pastor Mich's face was just like "Oh...Oh okay.." haha a little taken a back.

PROVE HOW BUSY I'VE BEEN!! >O<

Is it too early to post a status on fb? Hmmm...Nah!!!!! XD Haha
Oh my gosh!  What's new! Besides, the fact my school is killing with exams, pageants, mass demo?!?!?! /mind explodes/ @_@  Well, on the bright side! I gave everyone their Valentine's gifts *hart hart*  It's a bit early cuz starting today I'm going to lock myself up in the library.. (Goodbye, Friends~) LOL Moving ON! Even if I'm going to be working "that day" taking pics for the school newspaper. I'm proud to say! I scored at least 3 friendly dates with my Bestfriends!! *u* Now, I don't know about you but, that's Love. Do'nt'cha think? hihi #MyLifeIn1Status

MY STATUS ON FB (WOOHYUN'S B-DAY)

#WOOWOO For Life!  No wonder I woke up saying those words haha XD Today's My Nam Woohyun's B-day!!!  Happy B-day, Woo Woo~!! #INSPIRIT  /repeatedly throwing hearts/  HAHA

CONVERSATION W/ MY PAPA PHILIP <3 strong="">

Today's awesome convo with my Papa Philip  wuahaha

P: When I'm rich. I'm going to send you tickets to go to South Korea and 
Japan.

ME: WUAAAA *O* NO way!

P: Way. ;D

ME: You know what's more awesomer than what you're doing for me is that how awesome what I'm going to do for you when I'm rich which is PAY FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S COLLEGE TUITION!!! Yeah beat that, INSURANCE! WUHAHAHA 

P: What the?!?!? How can I ever compare!!!! 

ME: That's just it, you can't. XD BOOM!

#IDIOTS #RECKLESSDREAMERS #WHATTHEFUDGE

PART 2 AWESOME CONVO OF THE DAY!! (Lies, lies, about the new construction whatever thingy they're fixing at school) XD 

P: Why is there rebel everywhere?
ME: Oh they're gonna make a slide.
P: No shit!
ME: Shit. NAhh...I'm just joking.
P: I almost believed you! HAHA XD
ME: You really wanna know what happened? Miley Cyrus did it.
P: HAHAHAAHAHAAH
ME: Why you laughing?? It's true! -.-
P: Whatever.
ME: HAHAHA 

OUTFIT OF THE MONTH!!

Like, I promised! Here's last Sunday's Outfit  A Cream-Spanish Style cardigan, Yellow polo with green polka dots, white skinnies, black rosetti bag, beaded metallic sandals, and the eye-catching piece! My red jeweled necklace to tie it all together. 

STAY SWEET~

LOVE,

ASHLEY